i'm improvising as i go along

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So, I'm knocked up.

It's scary, but kinda awesome.

I'm back on tour again. It was great to be home and see Charlie. But even better?

He came back with me. I'm loving having my very own groupie. :)

It's been SO long since I've updated. I'm on tour, which means I'm not with Charlie, and that sucks. We did see each other earlier this month, for our anniversary though. Which was awesome, but I miss him so much. So, a meme to distract myself:

( under here )

I miss my husband. New Zealand is too fucking far away.

Anyway. I haven't updated in so long. Between Charlie filming movies and doing promotions, finishing school and recording life has been kinda hectic.

Oh, yeah. I recorded an album. You should all go buy it now, if you haven't already! It's doing great, and I'm supporting Single Cell Paramecium on tour. (I finally got to see them!) Which at least is distracting me from Charlie being halfway across the world.

Hey, guys. Long time no post, but between school, working on demos to send to studios and spending time with my awesome husband it's been kinda crazy here.

I've been so happy, though. I miss Dad and Pres sometimes, but I don't miss New England winters. Or Chadwick. I've made a ton of friends here, can hang out with Matty as much as I want, and mostly - I have Charlie. And that alone is awesome.

We're out back right now, drinking a beer and enjoying this view:



Life is awesome. Busy, but awesome.

He isn't just an amazingly pretty face. He was so awesome in the movie, he kicked so much ass.

Lucas, it's a fantastic script too. Well done.

So, yeah.

We're married.

It's crazy and awesome and I love it so far. We're going on our honeymoon right after we tell Charlie's parents. (Um, wish us luck?)

Later!

So, I'm moving to LA. Well, we both are.

It's kinda weird to think about it. I'm excited, of course I am. I get to be with Charlie which is awesome and it can only be good for my career. But you know, like the icon says I'm a East Coast liberal-Jewish-Atheist. Suppose living in LA hasn't stopped Mattie from being one, so I should be fine. I mean, I feel like a New Yorker, though I haven't lived there since I was a teeny baby.

Added to that I'm gonna be up and down to North Carolina as Charlie films the movie all summer and it's super weird for this Yankee girl. Change isn't always bad, though, and Tree Hill is an awesome little town. Reminds me a little of Quinlan, without the crazy Townie vs Chadwick divide.

So, yeah. Have a couple of weeks off before I start my last classes at Chadwick, and in September, I'm starting at UCLA. Hopefully I'll get the degree done in a year there. And then... well, I don't know. Be Mattie's sandwich slave? :)

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So, obviously, I love Charlie. And I am so proud that he's gonna be a big movie star. Way beyond proud. I'm insanely happy that he has this awesome opportunity.

But, I miss him. I'm here in Quinlan working on the seven hundred papers I have due, and finals are coming up, and ... I can't run away and go be with him.

I could. I mean, theoretically. I could say screw school. Be with Charlie. And I spent most of my first year here bitching about how I didn't want to do the whole school thing.

Thing is, that was a year and a half ago. And I'm taking some great classes and I'm learning a ton, and I have put so much work into this degree already. And as much as I love Charlie, I don't wanna give up on this for the wrong reason.

I still want to be a musician. I want to make music, I wanna really give it a try. But I know that might not work out, and so I don't want to give up this degree. It's like.. a safety blanket or something.

But all of the logical, feminist, good reasons why staying here and finishing school don't make this any easier. Two years of this. Two years being on opposite sides of the country from Charlie. And I can't take that. I don't think I could stand it.

Agh, I thought writing it out would help me get things straight. I guess not. I have to talk to him, to decide something...

But what?

Sent to Lucas:

A box of chocolate chip cookies, and a note:

Luke,

There's lots more where these came from.

Nell and Charlie.

Today is an awesome day.

It's Charlie's birthday!

Happy Birthday, Charles Walter. I love you so much.

I've just finished getting the breakfast stuff ready, so now I'm gonna go wake him and make sure he has an awesome day.

Spring Break 2010 > Spring Break 2009.

Last year I was pretty damn miserable.

This year, Charlie and I spent about 80% of it having crazy monkey sex in the super awesome house we rented. (And a couple of times in the tent he had last year, just cos.)

The other 20% of the time, we were really, really drunk.

That is how Spring Break should go.

It was so awesome.

God, I love the Onion.

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We just finished our production of Chicago. It went really well, mostly because my man is awesome.

He nailed the part, he really did. And not just because last night he kinda flashed the whole audience. He is seriously talented, and I am so lucky that I get to go home with him.

Most of campus agrees with that statement. But he's mine! :D

Barney brought a meme, and I escalated. :D

( Barney's meme )

( My meme )

RULE 1
You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2
You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone asks!


( It's been way too long since we meme-d )

Sent to Lucas:

A box of chocolate chip cookies, and a note:

Hey,

We thought maybe comfort food would help.

Hang in there, Luke. And there's always more where these came from.

Nell and Charlie

Hope everyone had an awesome holiday, whatever they celebrated.

Charlie is so awesome. He got me a pink Fender! That's how awesome he is.

I'm so lucky it blows my mind sometimes. :D

I'm about to make a ton of latkes with Pat, I'm teaching her how. And then, Lester's gonna kick everyone's ass at the dreidel game.

Happy Hanukkah guys.